Had a scare today. Gypsy had chest pains at the grocery store but would not sit down or go to the ER. It scared us both and made him rethink the whole bit about taking hormones. For today, he's decided not to take them any more and to go back to being male full time. I'll miss Rakli, but I would much rather have Gypsy alive and well than being a heart attack away from losing them both. It didn't make the day any easier when he started telling me what to do with his jewelry, swords, and tools. I have already got Laura's father in the ground, and went crazy enough with grief over that. I don't want to think about life without Gypsy. He's been very affectionate today. I love it but not the reason that has prompted it all. He also got Jordy's daggers polished and ready to mail, recut a knife he made from an old jackhammer bit, and polished the throwing axe he's giving Joe.

The plan is still to save up for a van that we can fix up and run all over the country going to gun and knife shows and ren faires selling his jewelry, swords and knives. We are doing okay so far this month. This week's article money will stay in the bank toward the van. I am proud of the fact that we paid our rent and groceries with the money I earned from writing articles.